So unfollow me now if you don’t want to be following an inactive blog.
I think it’s time for me to delete this blog. I’m really trying to better myself and although tumblr makes me happy and it is an escape for me, it’s one of the reasons I’m so depressed, I think.
I’m trying so hard to be a better person, to be happier. I don’t want to spend my life being sad anymore. I’m tired of sitting around all day hating my life. I’m going to fucking take control of my life. I haven’t cut in about 2 months. I’m in a place where I’m eating, yet I’m happy with my body. I’m getting better grades in school, I do all my homework, I study for tests and quizzes. I’ve pretty much cut tumblr out of my life, I literally never come on either of my blogs anymore. Cutting tumblr out of my life was probably the best decision I ever made. Without tumblr, I actually do my school work. Without tumblr, I’m slowly gaining some confidence. I think having confidence is a main factor to being happy. Confidence has given me some happiness. The other day, I had the nerve to lead a class discussion. I stood up in front of a class and facilitated a lesson. I actually go places alone, I don’t walk to class with people, or go to the bathroom with people. I mean, it’s not without a little anxiety, but I’m actually trying. Even my friends have noticed I’m changing. They don’t see it for the better, though, which I don’t get. They think it’s weird. Scary. What’s so bad about trying to improve myself? I’m not a depressed little bitch anymore who was failing classes, crying myself to sleep, ruining my body, pushing away all my friends, and destroying my future.
I’m turning my life around and it feels pretty fucking great.